Okay here is your warning.... I am going to talk about my weight AGAIN. But seeing how this is the closest thing I have to a journal, I am going to put my personal thoughts out in the open. As I am SURE you all know, Doug and I have lost some weight. Well things were going great for about a year and now I am getting really worried. I am watching the scale slowly creep back up. Now I hope you are not all sick to death of me talking about this I know I am sick of hearing me talk about it!
This is really hard to put in public. But I saw on Oprah how she "fell off the wagon" And I have heard of the people on biggest loser gaining back all their weight. Well I am starting to fall victim to the weight cancer too. It is trying to come back! I am starting to emotionally eat when I am stressed and have stopped going to the gym consistently. I have been making excuses for the past few months and telling myself it is no big deal. BUT I truly think that if I continue on this path I WILL gain it all back. I am starting to realise that it IS a life long commitment to a certain lifestyle. And for me, a life long battle. Some people are naturally thin and others bodies just want to store the fat! My body is fighting me like crazy. So I am going to be brave and put it out there for all to see so that I know I can be accountable to something. I am going to start tracking my points and my food and start back at the gym and then once a week I will update on here how I am doing.
So here it is. When I first weighed in at Weight watchers I weighed 200 lbs. I am 5' 4 . The smallest I got to was 133 lbs. My ultimate personal goal was 130 lbs. Well now I weigh 143 lbs.I have gone from a four to an eight.(Not that an eight isn't something to be proud of) I do give myself credit for maintaining as long as I have, but the weight is definitely going up and I really am not feeling healthy. So I am nipping this in the "butt" now before I get any higher. I am recommitting myself to this and would LOVE some encouragement because I have lost my motivation. I am resetting my 130 goal so off we go. I just want to make sure I don't undo all the hard work that I did. 10 lbs is easier to fix than 60. Thanks for listening!
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Don't feel stupid for posting about your health. I think it would be great motivation and after I have my baby you will see me doing the same thing! I am AMAZED at how committed you are to WW and eating healthy, etc. I went for 6 or 7 months and did okay, but never really got to where I wanted to be. It is SO hard! I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to be one of those moms that is back to their pre-prego weight 2 minutes after they have their baby. Anyway I'm just blabbing, but keep it up!
I was so impressed at how you changed your lifestyle and lost so much! You look so great! You can do it! I know it is soo hard! It is so hard for me to get to the gym, but I feel so much better when I do. I think the big thing is that you say you don't feel healthy. I have the oppossite problem of you. I am under wieght, and I don't eat when I am stressed. I have been trying to put on wieght, because being too thin, is not healthy either.People think I am so lucky, but actually I feel self concieuse about being too thin, I think it's like being over wieght.We all have our struggles. And I have been trying to go to the gym so I can get toned and put on some muscle. Good Luck. I will be cheering for you!
Really 133lbs is fantastic! although looking at your pictures I would have guessed 115lbs. I bet money that it was mostly muscle that was making those last three pounds hard to lose seeing as the more you work out well....Also keep in mind we just got past the holiday's most people do gain weight this time of year ;) You can get back into it quickly its a new year and your recommitted so keep on going strong! You Can Do IT!!!!!!!!!
you can vent all you want to me!
I am amazed that you have lost so much and it takes a lot for someone to write it all down for all to see. But Rose was right you just got through the holidays that is BIG for everybody. But you know what is so great about family and friends they are there for a reason to be your backbone whenever you need it. With a little bit of help and you can get to back where you are. You see I have never had to deal with that problem (believe me I have a lot more problems). But I look up to people that can do what you and your husband did. Your stronger then you think! And it is hard! good luck to you and I for one like to read what is happening in your life and it means this kind of stuff then write on.
Wow! Thank you Soooo much for all your kind words! I was just venting, I never expected so much support! Sonya, I'll bet it is so so so hard to be underweight too. I have a lot of friends (Charonnie included) who have that problem too. And you are right, it is just has hard as being overweight. So good for you for wanting to put on some muscle and be stronger. Maybe for every pound I lose you can gain! Lol! I use to always tease Charonne about that. And Rose you have a good point about the muscle. It does seem that when I go to the gym I always weigh MORE. But It is healthy cause it is muscle replacing fat. I guess it is all on how you feel and not so much on what the numbers say. Thanks again everyone, I have great friends!
ok, for each poung you lose, i will gain. You are wanting to lose 13, and thats about what i need to put on, deal? We should have some cool reward for it!
Shanny, as usual, Auntie is late in looking into your blog. BUT, as we've discussed....we are in the same boat! You should be VERY proud of yourself -- you've been a big encouragement to Robyn and I. You know it's a battle......but you've won it more than once! Overcome the hurdle girl, you know you can do it! I Love Ya!
Love you alll
Aunt Renie and Uncle Bill
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